THE DESIRE + VISION PERSONAL INTENSIVE

FOCUSED SUPPORT FOR CHALLENGING TIMES

“Walls turned sideways are Bridges.” 

 

-Angela Y Davis 

Did you miss our February Virtual Retreat or are you ready to go further in this inquiry? 

 

The Letter That Started It All...

I have been sitting here in the cloud forest of Ecuador looking for my own pleasure and desire in this offering.

In truth, what I’ve felt more than desire is exhaustion. I’ve been navigating the energetic debt of serving others for many years and wondering if what I’ve been doing is actually making a difference. I’ve been being with the overwhelm of trying to figure out what I could give that could possibly be enough in these times when the world seems so on fire. I’ve been asking how do I resource myself in a time when people seem so unwilling to devote themselves to deeper spiritual self-inquiry.  

But here is what I do know… We are in days where the spiritual can no longer afford to be separate from the political. The gig is up with the bypass of being so spiritual that I’m exempt from being witness to the atrocities being committed daily against humanity and the planet.

And…still…the most radical action you have available to you is to resource yourself. To connect well and truly with the desires that are whispering to you about what is really needed. Even as the machines that listen to us as we sleep are co-opting the language of our desires, almost in real time, to sell them back to us.

The message that drove me out of meditation and to my laptop this morning was “you first!”. It was so insistent that my eyes threw themselves open, my hands reaching for the keys, against every agreement I have to remain in my seat until the end of the session. But this is my metta (loving kindness practice) today. To transcribe this message of “Me First!”  Not me only. But me first. I must give myself the tools I want to share with the world. The balm I desire to be, I must be first to myself. And so it is with each of us. It is not to be resourced instead of but to be resourced in order to. It is the proverbial putting on our own oxygen masks first in the turbulence.

In this time, gathering matters. It has never mattered more.

So… back to seeking my own desire in the midst of all the chaos and doubt...

What I am turned on about is truth. Truth beyond what AI can synthesize. Truth that comes from the myceliar connections of our wombs to one another and the planet.

What I’m turned on about is transmission. The ways that we actually hold each other in the grounded wisdom of a shared nervous system that stabilizes, even as we, individually, feel unsteady.

In this time, we must find each other under tents and by creeksides. As a testament to our times, these days that place is often Zoom.

Tell me, can you feel this in your body, this urgency? That is timeless.

What I know about myself, personally, is that, when I move to new levels of evolution and consciousness, I do not go sweetly, like a graduate who has passed some cosmic exam. I go crying and flailing through the ring of fire, and, only on the other side, when my heaves have settled, do I recognize that I am sitting in new territory. Surprised to even be alive, because I was sure I was at my end. But, oh, with wonder, I take in that where I really am is at another beginning.

And so it is with our collective humanity in this moment, as we burn to find a way to the other side.

So, I invite you because it’s necessary.

I invite you because this is not work any of us can do alone.

I invite you to warm yourself by this fire that is delivering us at the same time that it feels eviscerating.

For a moment, pull aside the veil of your own exhaustion. Your discontent with the terrible disembodiment of Zoom. Your fatigue at being told that if you will just buy one more thing, you may just be exempt from the apocalypse.

Underneath the noise and fatigue, there is a knowing that this is a quickening, an uncomfortable but equally necessary stage in the birthing of the new.

This is an invitation to gather as our truest selves.

To lovingly find the direction under the overwhelm.

To link our daily actions to the enormity of the visions that are calling us forth.

To galvanize a future that can only be birthed by the feminine aware of the power of its own being.

So here, as we begin the double fire year of the Fire Horse in the Chinese zodiac (an alignment we have not seen since the last wave of civil rights) – I invite you…just as you are…to reconnect with yourself AS the way forward.

 

Come to rekindle your relationship with desire.

 

Come to clarify your vision.

 

Come to bathe in communion.

 

Come to find the way together.

 

In flaming solidarity,

Kianga

Pacto, Ecuador

February 2026

I am ready to put myself first.

The Message That Started It All.

 

I have been sitting here in the cloud forest of Ecuador looking for my own pleasure and desire in this offering.

In truth, what I’ve felt more than desire is exhaustion. I’ve been navigating the energetic debt of serving others for many years and wondering if what I’ve been doing is actually making a difference. I’ve been being with the overwhelm of trying to figure out what I could give that could possibly be enough in these times when the world seems so on fire. I’ve been asking how do I resource myself in a time when people seem so unwilling to devote themselves to deeper spiritual self-inquiry.  

But here is what I do know… We are in days where the spiritual can no longer afford to be separate from the political. The gig is up with the bypass of being so spiritual that I’m exempt from being witness to the atrocities being committed daily against humanity and the planet.

And…still…the most radical action you have available to you is to resource yourself. To connect well and truly with the desires that are whispering to you about what is really needed. Even as the machines that listen to us as we sleep are co-opting the language of our desires, almost in real time, to sell them back to us.

The message that drove me out of meditation and to my laptop this morning was “you first!”. It was so insistent that my eyes threw themselves open, my hands reaching for the keys, against every agreement I have to remain in my seat until the end of the session. But this is my metta (loving kindness practice) today. To transcribe this message of “Me First!”  Not me only. But me first. I must give myself the tools I want to share with the world. The balm I desire to be, I must be first to myself. And so it is with each of us. It is not to be resourced instead of but to be resourced in order to. It is the proverbial putting on our own oxygen masks first in the turbulence.

In this time, gathering matters. It has never mattered more.

So… back to seeking my own desire in the midst of all the chaos and doubt...

What I am turned on about is truth. Truth beyond what AI can synthesize. Truth that comes from the myceliar connections of our wombs to one another and the planet.

What I’m turned on about is transmission. The ways that we actually hold each other in the grounded wisdom of a shared nervous system that stabilizes, even as we, individually, feel unsteady.

In this time, we must find each other under tents and by creeksides. As a testament to our times, these days that place is often Zoom.

Tell me, can you feel this in your body, this urgency? That is timeless.

What I know about myself, personally, is that, when I move to new levels of evolution and consciousness, I do not go sweetly, like a graduate who has passed some cosmic exam. I go crying and flailing through the ring of fire, and, only on the other side, when my heaves have settled, do I recognize that I am sitting in new territory. Surprised to even be alive, because I was sure I was at my end. But, oh, with wonder, I take in that where I really am is at another beginning.

And so it is with our collective humanity in this moment, as we burn to find a way to the other side.

So, I invite you because it’s necessary.

I invite you because this is not work any of us can do alone.

I invite you to warm yourself by this fire that is delivering us at the same time that it feels eviscerating.

For a moment, pull aside the veil of your own exhaustion. Your discontent with the terrible disembodiment of Zoom. Your fatigue at being told that if you will just buy one more thing, you may just be exempt from the apocalypse.

Underneath the noise and fatigue, there is a knowing that this is a quickening, an uncomfortable but equally necessary stage in the birthing of the new.

This is an invitation to gather as our truest selves.

To lovingly find the direction under the overwhelm.

To link our daily actions to the enormity of the visions that are calling us forth.

To galvanize a future that can only be birthed by the feminine aware of the power of its own being.

So here, as we begin the double fire year of the Fire Horse in the Chinese zodiac (an alignment we have not seen since the last wave of civil rights) – I invite you…just as you are…to reconnect with yourself AS the way forward.

 

Come to rekindle your relationship with desire.

 

Come to clarify your vision.

 

Come to bathe in communion.

 

Come to find the way together.

 

In flaming solidarity,

Kianga

Pacto, Ecuador

February 2026

I am ready to put myself first.

The Desire + Vision 1:1 Intensive is designed to offer you a supported opportunity to reconnect with your desires - from the delicate to the wild to the oracular - and to connect the dots between those and the future you yearn for humanity and the more than human. 

 

We love to work in sacred community. And sometimes we also need the deep dive into our own personal heart. 

 

  • Maybe you have already organized your life around your big vision of the world.
  • Or maybe you are still uncovering the direction that you can feel as a spark in your soul.
  • Whether you're now a long-time veteran from the great Covid exodus with your own company and global platform or you're still looking for signs to light your way, this is a place to connect with the horizon of what only we can create and only our passions can fuel.

 

We will not be able to just survive our way to what's next,

we'll have to actively create it.

 

And for that, we'll need tools. 

The Intensive is designed for you to 

During our two days together, we'll fill our coffers with practical, repeatable skills and practices.

We'll  work with four engagements. 

  • A Neutral Assessment of Things As They Are
  • A Reconnection with Desire
  • A Refreshed Vision
  • And An Understanding of How The Masculine and Feminine Aspects Come Together To Give Us Practical Structure for Real World Impact 

 An applicable plan for your real life, as it really is. Augmented by your vision of what's possible...

 

Choose Your Area of Focus

Engagement 01

A Neutral Assessment of Things as They Are 


To know where we're going, we first have to be able to take stock of things as they are.

All of our work here sits on the foundation of Four Contextual Assumptions:

We are who we are.

We want what we want.

Circumstances are as they are.

And we are infinitely supported to have that which is in our highest good. 

We'll start with a simple assessment of how things are going for each of us in six key areas of our lives.

Trust that It will be a great benchmark to have when it's time to look back on this year. 

Engagement 02

A Rekindling of the Desires Uniquely Your Own  

 

At the core of our work with the feminine is an understanding of desire as something sacred and connected to the highest versions of ourselves.

Far from being something dangerous to us, as we often perceive, aligned desire is actually most threatening to the status quo. From our little impulses for beautiful foods--to our craving for deeply connected sex--to the world-changing knowing in our bellies about the ways that love, connection, purpose, and nature have to be more accessible for the wellbeing of all. 

In order for Desire to guide us faithfully, we must cultivate a regular and trusted relationship with it.

Engagement 03

A Fresh Articulation of  Vision


The way we weather the current storm is with our eyes on the horizon. And our collective horizon is defined by each of our relationships with our own guiding vision. Our ability to see and imagine the worlds we want to live in is directly correlated to our ability to create it.

If we let go of trying to "fix" the world we have, what would we create instead? 

What are the systems, structures, communities that you feel called to build to lay the foundation for the world we  create from here? 

However large or small that vision, your piece plays an essential part. 

This is the foundation of co-creating the future. 

 Engagement 04 

A Way Forward that Integrates both the Masculine + Feminine Aspects of Structure

 

Co-creation is a practice of union. We will not bring EITHER just masculine certainty or just feminine wisdom to birthing the future. The future relies on the harmonious participation of both. And that harmony starts with you.

So much of the success "best practices" have nothing to do with how the feminine system works. But so much of contemporary "divine feminine" speak leaves us impotent in the face of the daily doing that real change reequires.

The trick is not to do one OR the other, but to understand in nuanced ways exactly how they fit together. And how to use this understanding to structure your days, weeks, months, and years. 

Any sustainably effective way forward has to take into account feminine rhythms and cyclicities as much as the desired destination. And it's actually your own masculine capacity to create rails for your flow that will determine whether you feel like you're just spinning your wheels or sticking the landing.

Light me up!

Your personal intensive happens on your schedule in 2 SEGMENTS - THE DEEP DIVE  

 

$1 - An Assessment of Where Things Stand at The Begininig 

#2 - Our 2.5 Hour Virtual Intensive where we deep dive on one area identified in the assessment 

  

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And The Integration 

 

 

#3a - From that we create your personalized written plan for Integration Practices 

#3b- 30 Days of Supported Implementation (ask any questions you have via text thread as you go 

#4 - After 30 days, we'll have a 30-minute Reflection Session to See How Things are coming and to tweak the plan

 

 

ALL THE DEETS

 
 

 

WHAT
  • 3 hours of live support (with recordings). *Including a 2.5 hour deep dive. And a 30-minute follow-up call. 
  • A personalized integration plan to actually USE the insights in your real life. 
  • 30 days of supported implementation between calls. 

 

WHERE

Good old Zoom (we'll share a link to our calendar and the assessment as soon as you've registered)

 

WHO

This is for the birthers of the new world order. As we understand it, that's any woman who feels deeply called to bring her own unique gifts and wisdom to this moment in a way that prioritizes being self-resourced.

 WHEN

As soon as you say yes. This is designed to work on your schedule, With the caveat that we offer these a few spots at a time as space allows, so, when you see this, you should act. 

HOW MUCH

The investment is $1288 for 30 days of personalized support. It's the least expensive 1:1 support we've ever offered . 

I'm ready!

Hi! I'm Kianga.

YOUR LEAD FACILITATOR AND CAULDRON CONCIERGE 

 

Almost a decade ago now, I walked through the doorway of surrender. Almost accidentally at the time. My life has never been the same. 

At that time, I was a university professor and a fine artist, running one of the top fine arts programs in New York City.

I’m now a full-time entrepreneur with a wisdom school that helps men and women unlock the full potential waiting within each of us by understanding the timeless aspects of gender. There is a masculine and a feminine component to everything in manifest creation, and knowing how to use them wisely is the core of sustainable life creation.

There was a time when I seriously over-relied on my masculine energy. I was effective and successful, but I was also…well…tired. Honestly, at that point,  I'd never even heard anyone talk about how to access and lean into my feminine energy. I had no idea there was another way.

These days, I’ve built a life and a way of working that isn't based in force or efforting, and I'm mostly recovered from my control addiction. I lead now from an honest and intimate relationship with my own Desire, which I know to be deeply connected to a higher wisdom than my mind.  I move from what turns me on. And I had to first learn how to connect with that.

I have a PhD (abd) in cultural theory and another graduate degree in fine art. I’m also a certified coach, an Orgasmic Meditation trainer, and an ordained intuitive. But what really qualifies me to do this work is that I’ve walked the walk in the real world. I’ve leaned into these principles of creation and surrender while caretaking a terminally-ill parent, while navigating the wilds of dating and business-building, while traveling the world and remaking my life in different contexts. What I teach has been forged and clarified many times over by real world challenges. So, while I may have an academic background, this is a living practice and not an intellectual theory.

I’ve parlayed decades of work as an artist and educator into a refined expertise in Experience and Curriculum Design. What results is not information. It’s the magic of being able to create a context for you to have your own personal and direct experience with the Principles of Creation. So the invitation I make to you is not to become more like me, but to become more of You.

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